Sometimes you need a big entrance when bursting back on the scene, in this case, the blogging scene. I’ve written a guest post for another blog called “Love & War” which I’ve posted an excerpt of below. It’s personal, but then again I’ll never meet any of you, right?
I feel like I should be sitting in some circle in a nondescript class or meeting room, surrounded by faces I don’t know each looking as guilty as I. I’m Jonathan; I’m 30 years old and have never been married. The next part is a bit confusing though. Although a 30 year old single male with no kids isn’t as rare as it used to be, I was recently accused of having a fear of commitment by an ex-girlfriend, of course. Short history lesson: Lost my job, lost a close friend who seemingly may have taken her own life and my grandfather was in his final days in the hospital. In the heat of an argument, I took my relationship down with everything else life had and was taking from me.
In one of the many subsequent post-break up battles a set of words were spoken that I couldn’t recall ever having heard before. “You’re just afraid of commitment!” she said. Here’s where it gets confusing. Sure, I was 30; I’d lived with a couple long-term girlfriends and was even engaged to one of them for a couple years. Was she saying that because I freaked out as my world was falling apart and I realized she was basically moving in at the same time? No, that was too easy. She was alluding to the fact that I also blew up my engagement twice and never even got close to planning the big day. Now we’re getting somewhere.
Read the rest of my post here: In LOVE & WAR Online: A Different Fear of Commitment.
Tags: commitment, engagement, fear, Love, marriage, wedding
